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Another First

So did I happen to mention that I’m leaving my baby overnight for the very first time this weekend?  Because I am.  And now I’m starting to freak out just a little bit about that.  I have no doubts that he’ll be just fine.  I’m more worried about how I will handle it.

Saturday night I’ll be attending a bachelorette party.  For the party, they chose a venue that has a hotel right next door so that nobody has to drive home and everyone can partake in the festivities.  I didn’t want to look like a wuss so I agreed to stay overnight with the girls.  Hubby is going to Rockfest and will be gone until pretty late that night, so Zach is staying at Grandma’s house.  ALL NIGHT LONG.  I bet I wake up bright and early Sunday morning ready to go fetch my little munchkin.  I miss him already just knowing that he won’t be in the room next to me.

I’m sure I’ll survive, but it is causing just a little bit of anxiety.  another first to write in the baby book someday when I get around to filling it out.  It’s a damn good thing I have my blog because otherwise I would have no idea when all these things happened.  Did I mention that he’s pretty much walking on his own now too?  My baby is growing up so fast!

Things might be a little scarce around here for the next week or two.  I’ve got lots of catching up to do at work before we leave next Friday for Phoenix and may not have much blogging time.  I’m so excited for our trip, but a little nervous about being around hubby’s family.  It will be the first time since my BIL died and could be pretty emotional.

Anyone have any ideas for entertainment in the Phoenix area?  Please share ’cause I haven’t had time to look anything up yet.

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The Anniversary

Four years ago today I married the man that I planned to spend the rest of my life with.  We met each other just a little over a year before that by an accidental (or maybe not so accidental) bump on the dance floor.  There seemed to be an almost instant spark between us and we quickly jumped into a relationship.

There were a few little bumps in that first year that we had to work through, but on our wedding day we didn’t care about anything other than making a permanent commitment to each other.  It wasn’t a fancy wedding as it was the second for both of us, but our families were there and it was exactly how we wanted it to be.

We’ve had our share of ups and downs, as any relationship has, but the last year has probably been the most difficult.  There have been times when I have sat back and wondered how I let myself get into this situation.  Then there are other times when I am reminded of why I fell in love with him in the first place. 

My husband is far from perfect.  I am far from perfect.  But, something between us just works.  I have made the decision to make sure that it works between us and am determined to put forth as much effort as I need to in order to make it work.  I realized this week that I want to make it better and that I’m the one that is going to have to make it better through my attitude and my efforts.

A week ago, I wasn’t sure that there was enough of a relationship left to salvage.  We have both changed so much that it seemed nearly impossible.  Today, on our anniversary,  I caught a glimpse of the man that I married four years ago and somewhere behind all of those walls that I have built up, my heart skipped a little.  There is still a lot of work to do to get back to the way it was, but I think we might be heading back in the right direction…if I can keep up my end of the bargain.  Somewhere, deep down, I really do love that man.

I’m actually looking forward to spending some time with him alone tonight, even if it is only for a couple hours at dinner.

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How To Start Your Day Off Right

Step 1: Wake up already!
Step 2: Stumble into the bathroom and examine the huge dark circles under your eyes, all the while trying to figure out why in the hell you didn’t go to bed earlier.
Step 3: Put contacts into burning eyes, pee, brush teeth, shower, etc.
Step 4: Get dressed (put jeans on even though it isn’t jeans day because you have no clean undies that won’t show through the only pair of clean khakis in the laundry basket).
Step 4: Search for shoes.  Put on slightly too high-heeled black slides because the jeans are long and this will make you look slimmer and not quite so sloppy.
Step 5:  Hear baby waking up.  Ignore baby and take dogs outside before they pee on the carpet.  Notice puppy made a big mess in her kennel overnight.
Step 6: Get baby up and dressed.  Fix cup of milk and sit baby in the highchair while you clean up dog mess.
Step 7: Lock dogs up in respective day areas (kennel and basement).
Step 8: Grab Coke Zero from fridge.  Wait.  Remember you forgot to put the Coke in the fridge.  Say words baby should not hear.  Grab water instead.
Step 9: Drop baby off at day care in a rush because on the way there you realize you forgot to stop and get gas lastnight and that stupid light won’t quit flashing at you again.
Step 10: Stop at gas station.  Fill car up.  Go inside and buy 2 bottles of cold Coke Zero and a danish that you totally don’t need.
Step 11: Drive to work holding phone in one hand while listening to mom blab about her screwed up web site, trying to eat danish, and drink Coke with other hand.  Steering mostly with knees.
Step 12: Arrive at work only a little late.  Brush crumbs off of clothes. Get out of car.  Walk toward office building.
Step 13: Somehow manage to get bottom of jeans all caught up in too high-heeled black slides, fall on face (or knees), scrape up hand, watch Coke fly across parking lot.  Look up to see somewhat cute guy trying not to laugh as he picks your Coke up and asks if you are ok.
Step 14: Hobble up steps quickly hoping nobody else saw what happened.
Step 15: Tell the whole internet about it because even though you were totally embarrassed, it was kind of funny.

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Sweet Dreams

What’s better than dreaming about your former BFF apologizing for not speaking to you in 5 years?  Dreaming about Chris Daughtry telling you that he totally has the hots for you.  What’s even better than that? Dreaming about those two things happening in the same freakin’ dream and totally blowing off the former BFF for Chris.  I don’t often even remember my dreams, but that was one I really didn’t want to wake up from.

Unfortunately, the dang alarm didn’t want me to conutinue my awesome dream and kept going off, no matter how many times I hit the snooze button.  So, here I am back at work after an awesome Memorial Day weekend.  It wasn’t nearly as relaxing as I wanted it to be, but I suppose that is my own fault.

Friday night we hung out with some friends.  Our drummer friend just joined a new band and we got to listen to them practice a little bit.  I haven’t really formed an opinion of them yet, but it does sound promising.  I really miss going to see the local bands play so maybe this will encourage hubby and I to get out a little more often.

Saturday I decided to have a barbeque and invite a few friends over.  I set up a little pool for the babies and a sprinkler for the older kids.  They all had a blast playing in the water.  We had a TON of food, plenty of beverages, and perfect weather.  Overall, I think everyone had a great time.  We’re planning to do the same thing next month for Zach’s birthday, so it was kind of nice to have a trial run.

Sunday after church, my dad treated us to a movie.  We all went and saw Over the Hedge, which was pretty cute.  I ended up missing a lot of the movie because Zach just wouldn’t sit still.  He was tired but in one of those moods where if he started getting too comfortable he had to squirm to keep himself awake.  I don’t think I’ll be taking him to another movie for a while.  Maybe we’ll try again when he has more than a 2-minute attention span.

Sunday we had planned on a day of eating and swimming at my mom’s apartment.  We did plenty of eating, but the swimming got rained out so we ended up just vegging out and watching movies instead.  The kids had a great time playing together.  I spent most of my time chasing after Zach and trying to keep him out of the things he shouldn’t be into.

Also, I finally got my new laptop that I’ve been wanting so badly.  I got it yesterday morning and haven’t really had a chance to get it all set up the way I want it so I’m really looking forward to getting home tonight and messing around with it.

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Eleven Months

Dear Zachary,

It has been eleven months now since the day that we first met. You would think that I would know you pretty well by now, but you still continue to surprise me every day. Boo!Just when I think I have you figured out, you go and do something completely different than what I am expecting. You really surprised me one night when I looked up to see you standing all by yourself without holding on to anything but your sippy cup.

One of the most exciting things I have noticed about you recently is that you have started reacting to praise, which also means you are starting to understand words and physical cues a little better. You have been trying really hard to get some new words out, but I still can’t understand most of what you say. Sometimes it sounds as if you are trying to imitate the words I say and other times it just sounds like jibberish. One word you definitely understand is no. Every time I say "no" to you, you start saying "nonononononononono" may_06 033and shake your head. I never realized that I was shaking my head when I said no until you started doing it too. Now I catch myself doing it all the time. It’s just too bad you don’t comply and stop whatever you are doing when I use that word. I suppose that will come with time…hopefully.

I have really been having fun praising you when you do something good. Every time you do something new I now have to clap my hands and say "yay Zach" and you get so excited. You just think it is the coolest thing ever and when you do the same action again, you wave your hands in the air and holler to get my attention and show me what you have done. This has become quite a ritual at dinnertime. I got excited the first time you actually placed your cup (right side up) in the cup holder part of your high chair tray, so now every time youmay_06 042 do it you expect the same level of excitement. And, really, it is still exciting-even after the twentieth time.

We have also been playing a really fun game almost every night after your bath. Daddy and I both get down in the floor with you. We sit across from each other and then you walk back and forth between the two of us. You started out only able to take about two steps at a time, but a couple nights ago I counted nine whole steps before you stumbled and fell to your knees. You get really excited about this whole process, giggling and squealing the whole time. I have really loved watching your progress. When we first started doing this, only a couple weeks ago, it seemed that you were just stumbling as you fell forward. Now you may_06 003have taught yourself to slow down and re-gain your balance as needed so you can take a few more steps.

We had a couple of really bad weeks this month while you were teething. You now have a total of 7 teeth, with the eighth about to appear any day now. During the same time you developed a cold and a very bad ear infection. Mommy was up with you several times a night while your little body was working through that. You finished off another bottle of anti-biotics and now seem to be feeling much better. I’m still trying to catch up on my sleep, may_06 024but you are back to your normal sleep schedule. In fact, you are sleeping even longer than usual since I finally got some curtains up in your room to darken it a bit.

There is only one more month left before you turn one year old. June is going to be a big month, and althought I’m looking forward to it, I wish I could freeze every moment I have with you right now. You are so much fun to be around. Your personality and character are really coming out as you discover this big world in your own little way. I could spend all day just watching you and never get bored. I want to savor every single moment I have with you. These last eleven months have been the best of my life.

Love always,
Mama

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Living in a Fantasy

Several times a day I find myself thinking up little scenarios in my head.  Some might call it daydreaming.  I like to call it my very own little fantasy world.  In my fantasy world, things always go just the way I want them to.  The happenings in my fantasy world are usually sparked by something in the real world that has recently happened.  For instance, as I was pulling into the parking lot at work a few minutes ago, I saw a man that looked very similar to a guy I was friends with in high school.  I knew it wasn’t really my friend, but I played out an entire interaction with him in my head, even inviting him to the bbq at my house this weekend.  In my fantasy world I found out that he is now married, has a baby, and has a job that he loves.  He had just met with a client at my office building and was on his way back to the office for the afternoon.  He also was very happy to see me and couldn’t wait to catch up.  We exchanged e-mail addresses and phone numbers and he was on his way.

Then, there was this morning at work, when I was fantasizing that my mother suddenly had to leave and go far, far, away for three months and that I could have no contact with her whatsoever until she returned.  I’m pretty sure that idea came from the fact that she was talking my ear off from the moment I walked in the door until I left for lunch.  The last two days with her out of the office were kinda nice.  This may be the only time ever in my life that I actually wished for it to be Monday again.

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