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How I'm Feeling

Published by dee on September 11, 2007

One of the questions that you always seem to get during early pregnancy is “How are you feeling?”  I probably answer that question ten times a day right now and my answer is usually always the same.  “Not too great, but it is getting better.”  I can’t wait for the day when I can just say “good,” and move on.  Good certainly doesn’t sum it all up today.  I’m stuck in that hormonal roller coaster of emotions and here’s here’s how I’m really feeling today:

Sad – Because I feel like I’ve lost all motivation to keep up with my blog.  It isn’t that I don’t want to write, it is more that I don’t think anything I have to say is interesting right now.  Who really wants to read about how tired I am every day?  Also, sad because I don’t have the time or energy to fix my blog up all pretty like I want to.

Hungry – All the dang time!  When I want to eat, I rarely can, and when I can, I don’t want to.  I’m so ready to get past the first trimester and actually enjoy food again.  At least I’m not gaining weight.

Tired – Again, all the time.  I think I could fall asleep anywhere at any time.  It doesn’t help that I can’t seem to sleep at night and wake up over and over again.

Relieved – Because I read some of my old archives today from when I was pregnant with Zach.  Apparently I felt just as tired and worn down
 at 12 weeks as I am feeling now at 11 weeks.  I wasn’t sleeping then either (which I didn’t remember).  I should have read ahead a little more to make sure that it gets better.

Ecstatic – Because we got to hear the baby’s perfect little heartbeat on Friday and I keep hearing that little thump, thump, thump in my head.  I can’t wait to meet her/him.

Frustrated –  Because I live with a 2-year-old that doesn’t yet understand logic. Also, because said two-year-old couldn’t care less when I try to use positive reinforcement, instead responding only to threats of punishment.  He’s forcing me to be the mom I don’t want to be.

Happy – Because I have a new wedding band on my finger.  I’ve been without a ring since shortly after our vacation in July when my fingers started swelling and blistered from my wedding ring being too tight.  Unfortunately, my beautiful sapphire and diamond band has to take a vacation for a while so I got a plain silver wedding band (in a larger size) to take it’s place while I’m pregnant.  (I also managed to get an amazing deal on it which makes it even better!)

Somber – 9/11  Enough said.

Amused – Because out of nowhere, Zach started trying to tell “knock, knock” jokes today.  It started this morning, then he really got fired up at dinner tonight.  He doesn’t quite have the concept down, but he’s working on it.  Here is one of his best attempts:

Zach: Knock, Knock! (yelling cause he was so excited!)
Mom: Who’s there?
Zach: Dylan
Mom: Dylan who?
Zach: Zach (laughing like a maniac)
Zach: I’m FUNNY!!! (laughter erupts all around)

I guess you had to be there to really enjoy it, but I laughed harder than I have all day.

That pretty much sums up my day, except for all the times I got teary and almost cried while thinking about Zach, the new baby, and all of the adorable sibling pictures I’ve seen online lately.  Oh, and all the other millions of emotions that flash through me off and on during the day.  These pregnancy hormones are so much fun!

And now, it is time for bed.  Otherwise I may end up sleeping on my keyboard and that won’t be pretty in the morning.

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Sugar & Spice & Everything Nice

Published by dee on September 5, 2007

My family has all been anxiously waiting for my brother’s wife to have her ultrasound so we could find out whether to start buying little pink dresses or hand over the tubs and tubs of boy clothes that we have accumulated with four boys in the family.  It appears that the pink dresses will prevail because they’re having a girl!  She’ll be the first girl on my side of the family, so we’re all very excited.  I’m even more excited because I’m going to have two little nieces by the end of the year (Hubby’s brother and his wife are also expecting a girl in November, which will be the first girl on Hubby’s side).

I’m even more anxious now to find out what I’m going to have.  I have always wanted one boy and one girl.  Since I already have my boy, I’m really hoping for a girl this time around.  I’m already imagining two little girl cousins tumbling around and playing together during our family get-togethers.  They’ll need the strength in numbers if they want to have any chance of competing with the older boys.

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So the morning sickness has let up a bit, but is still lingering.  Some days are definitely better than others.  It seems to hit me harder during the week when I’m doing a lot of sitting still at my desk at work.  If I’m up moving around and keeping busy I don’t notice it as much.  I’m guessing that’s why it didn’t bother me so much over the weekend except when I ate pepperoni pizza which was not at all a good thing).

While the morning sickness is letting up a little, the sensitivity and emotions seem to be flooding in.  I can’t watch shows like “A Baby Story” without a box of kleenex sitting next to me.  Even the commercials get me sometimes.  But, when it really hit me was when I was card shopping at Hallmark and saw a picture frame that said “big brother” along the side of it.  I barely held back the tears as I imagined Zach’s picture there holding his new little brother or (hopefully!) sister in his arms.  I just can’t wait for him to have a sibling and to get to experience a whole different kind of love than he has ever known.

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Happy and Exhausted

Published by dee on September 4, 2007



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We had a great time at the lake this weekend. It was a bit chaotic at times with two 2-year-olds who seem to think that the world revolves around them, but I think the kids all had a blast playing in the water and riding on grandpa’s boat. We came home yesterday absolutely exhausted, but the smile in that picture up there makes it all worth it.

Of course, there was the added bonus of very little morning sickness and some great deals at the outlet mall. Too bad I don’t have a picture of my smile!

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And We're Off!

Published by dee on August 31, 2007

My goal this week was to try to write an entry every day. Surprisingly, I didn’t make it. Last night I got busy packing bags and obsessing like I always do when we’re about to leave town for a few days. I’m really looking forward to the weekend though. We’re heading down to the lake this afternoon for a long weekend of fun in the sun. I’m really anxious to get out on the boat and just enjoy the relaxing atmosphere for a few days. I’m also anxious to see how Zach likes the boat this year. We haven’t been down since last summer and it will be a whole new experience for him this time around.

Anyway, I’ve got to get to work so I can get out of here a bit early today. Hope everyone has a fun and relaxing Labor Day weekend!

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All He Really Wanted Was The Cotton Candy

Published by dee on August 29, 2007

Last Thursday, Hubby and Brother-in-law had tickets to the Chiefs vs. Saints game at Arrowhead. They had gotten some cheap tickets on ebay a while back and were all excited about going to the game. However, a few days before that, BIL with searching again and ended up finding a 4-pack of tickets with much better seats for a great price, so he snatched those up as well. At the last minute he hadn’t found anyone to use the two extra tickets so Hubby called and invited Zach and I to go to the game with them.

I wasn’t sure at first whether I could handle sitting out in the heat, as I was just barely recovering from two days of the nasty stomach virus, but decided since the tickets were already paid for we might as well use them. I figured if it came down to it we could always leave early.

Zach_TailgatingAs soon as I got off work, I rushed around to get Zach picked up, swing by the bank for some cash, get home, change clothes (and shave so I didn’t have to wear jeans), change Zach, pack a diaper bag, and get to the stadium. By the time I got there I ended up having to park at the very outer edge of the lot, possibly the farthest point from the stadium. Then, I had to get myself, and my lovely 2-year-old who apparently had forgotten how to walk, to the opposite side of the stadium to meet up with Hubby, BIL, and some friends who were tailgating before the game. About halfway through the walk I had pretty much convinced myself that I would not make it and that I might possibly just collapse right there and die. But, I trudged on, carrying a 35 pound load on my hip.

Just as we rounded the stadium, I stopped for a moment so Zach and I could both get a drink of cold water and amazingly got him to walk about 10 steps. It was then that a huge group of Chiefs cheerleaders walked by and went absolutely nuts over Zach. They all stopped to tell him hi and tell me just how cute he was. And then I realized that I forgot my camera. I am possibly the worst mom in the world. Not only will he not have that moment captured to show off to all of his friends when he’s a teenager, I had no proof of it to show off to his jealous Daddy when we finally got to the tailgating spot.

Chiefs_gameWe finally met up with Hubby and the rest of the gang and finished off a hot dog just in time to clean things up and head in for the game. By the time we got in and found our seats, we were all hot and sweaty. Zach was a bit cranky at first, but I blame it more on the heat than anything. He was beyond thrilled when I bought a $5 lemonade for us to share. There wasn’t a whole lot of sharing though. I was lucky to get a drink before I handed it to him because I think he finished off the rest of the 32 oz. cup.

Zach watched the game in little bits and pieces and, much to his Daddy’s dismay, would stand up and clap with the rest of the Chiefs fans when the crowd got excited. Daddy’s team won in the end with a final score of 30-7 (if I remember correctly). I think the highlight of the entire game for Zach though, was when the little girl and her mommy sitting behind us offered him a little puff of her cotton candy. He had been staring her down and I was debating whether or not to spend the money to buy him his own when she asked if he could have some. The smile on his face was priceless, and the little bit that she gave him was plenty so I got to save some money too.

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It's Hard to Knit When You're Sleeping

Published by dee on August 28, 2007

Well, I suppose it is time for an update over here, seeing as I haven’t posted in nearly a month.  The truth is, it has probably been that long since I’ve done any knitting.  I’ve detailed things more over at my personal blog, but basically between pregnancy, two bouts with a nasty stomach virus, and keeping up with my two-year-old, I’m just wiped out by the end of the day.  By the time I get Zach to bed at night, I’m pretty much ready to crash myself.  Since that is usually the only time I get to knit, the knitting has been pushed aside.  It is kind of looking like some of the baby gifts I wanted to knit are not going to get done unless my energy picks up soon.  The good news is that I only have a few more weeks to go to get through the first trimester, so hopefully it will get better and I can pick up the needles again.  If not, I guess I’m going to have a lot of baby gifts to buy in the upcoming months.

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