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Little Ray of Sunshine

IMG_7561(I played around with sun flare last night. I didn’t quite get what I wanted, but I’m almost there!)

I read a post by Miss Zoot this morning about a random act of kindness – a woman offered her an umbrella when she was walking through the rain with her two kids. In the same post, she spoke of another act that she had been on the receiving end of that wasn’t so kind.  Both of these elicited strong feelings and it got me thinking about the kind of person I am.

Would I sacrifice my own umbrella to give it to a woman carrying two kids in the rain?  I’m not sure.  Am I generally a kind person?  Yes, I think I am.  Do I have those moments when I’m too busy and rushed and glare at the woman who slows me down in the aisle at Target?  Um, yeah, sadly I do.

As I said, I’m generally a kind person.  I want to see the good in everybody.  There are people out there in the world who don’t have an ounce of kindness in them and think only about themselves.  There are people who do nothing but complain about those around them, looking for the negative in everything.  I even try to find the good in those people.  Maybe they just had a bad morning.  Maybe they spilled coffee on their last pair of clean clothes.  Maybe their kid woke them up twelve times the night before.  Who knows?

No matter what negative thing a person has done or said, I want to defend them, come up with some reason that made them the way they are.  When they complain about something someone else has done, I want to defend the person that the negativity is being spewed at.  I guess I’m just a “look on the bright side” kind of person.  I assume there is always a reason for that person to be bitter, that it isn’t just some kind of huge character flaw that leaves them that way.

There are times when I become that negative person.  I know I can be selfish and sometimes only think of myself and my own agenda, but when I realize I’m doing it I feel horrible.  I want to be that little ray of sunshine that always leaves people with a positive feeling.  I want to leave behind a trail of happiness and warmth with every encounter I have with another person, and I want my children to strive for the same thing.

Sometimes I think my shyness/social phobia really prohibits me from doing the good deeds I would like to do.  Even when I want to step out of my comfort zone and help someone else, I can’t always make myself do it.  See, I would want to be the woman who offered her umbrella to a mom and two kids getting soaked in the rain, but I’m not sure I could actually do it.  It would require talking to a person I don’t know, unsolicited, which for some reason strikes me with a crazy, irrational fear.

Is being a generally kind person and wanting to take that risk enough if I can’t/don’t follow through?  I’m not sure that it is.  What do you think?  Would you offer your umbrella?

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The Woe Is Me Post

Yesterday was a bad day.  I wanted to just give up on everything.  For nearly a week things had been piling up and I was to the breaking point.  But, things took a turn for the better and today I can look back on it and laugh at myself.  My life is NOT that tough.  There are others who have it much, much worse.  However, I’m still going to tell you all about my horrible, no good, very bad week.

It all started last Wednesday.  I dropped the kids off at day care, gave them kisses on the way out, and noticed that Evie’s head felt just a tad bit warm.  I brushed it off thinking maybe it was just a bit too warm in the back seat of the car on the way over.  I went on to work thinking nothing of it.  When I picked the kids up that evening, I found out Zach had had a really rough day behaviorally, and was complaining of a headache and his stomach hurting.  When he wasn’t even interested in eating, I knew something was wrong.   I felt his head and he was very warm and ended up having a low-grade fever.

Soon after that, I went to check on Evie, who was in my bed watching Mickey Mouse.  She was burning up too.  Two sick kids.

We had planned on going out to get my new treadmill that night (since my old one died), so I left Hubby at home with the kids while I went out on my own to pick the treadmill up.  He got them settled in bed and then helped me put my treadmill together.

Somewhere in there I tried to do a load of laundry and discovered that the drain in our laundry room was backing up again.  It was clear water (straight from the washer) so I didn’t worry too much about it and tossed it aside in my mind to deal with the next day.

Thursday morning I got up and ran on my new treadmill for 28 glorious minutes (Week 8 of the C25K program).  That run felt so good it may have actually been the highlight of my entire week.  After nearly a week of not running, I had to push myself a bit but it wasn’t the struggle I was expecting.  I felt so good afterward.

After I showered and got dressed I went to check on the kids, who were both still feverish and feeling cruddy.  Zach had an already scheduled doctor’s appointment later that morning for his 5-year well visit so I figured we’d have him checked out first and see if Evie needed to see the Doc.  He was showing 4 out of 5 of the signs for Strep, so he got swabbed.  Fortunately it was negative, but a urine sample showed that he was very dehydrated and had traces of blood in his urine (which earned us another return trip to the Doc with a new sample Friday morning).  Everything else checked out fine but we couldn’t do his immunizations because of the fever so we had to set another appointment in a couple of weeks.

The kids were hungry and begging for chicken nuggets when we left the doctor’s office.  They both seemed to be okay stomach-wise, so we went through the drive-through and then headed home.  After they picked at their nuggets, I sent them both to bed for naps so that I could get some work done.  A few minutes later I heard “Mommy, I puke!” coming from the kids’ room.  And of course that was just what I wanted to hear.  After a bedding change and a quick wipe-down of the girl child, she was settled back down in her bed, where she pretty much stayed the rest of the day.  She did get up for a bit to snuggle with me in my chair, where she promptly puked in my lap, then went back to bed.

By this point the drainage problem in the basement was getting worse and we had sewage backing up.  We got some heavy duty drain cleaner from the maintenance guy at my work and attempted to clear out whatever was clogging it up.  After putting two bottles down it, there wasn’t a lot of improvement.

Friday morning, knowing I couldn’t shower, we had a plumber called in.  Since he wouldn’t be there until after noon, I loaded the kids and dirty (puked on) laundry in the car.  Fortunately, the kids’ fevers were down and they both seemed to be perking up a bit.  We made a quick stop at the doctor’s office to drop off Zach’s sample (which I still haven’t heard anything back on) then headed to my mom’s house to take quick baths and throw some laundry in her washer.

We got back home just in time to grab a quick lunch before the plumber showed up.  After several hours he had cleaned out years worth of roots and sludge from our main drain.  As a bonus, he even cleaned up the mess that had been left in the floor of our laundry room.  I was finally a little less stressed and things were looking up.

When Hubby got home, we decided to get out of the house for a bit and run errands.  The kids were feeling much better.  We got about halfway to our destination when we realized that the air conditioner in my car wasn’t working…again.  I felt pretty defeated at that point.  We’ve poured so much money into fixing my car and it just seems like it does not want to be fixed.  We finished our errands, enjoyed a nice dinner out, and then stopped by my mom’s to pick laundry up.

Saturday morning we headed to Springfield for the annual Gugel Fall (a big BBQ/fireworks show that my Aunt/Uncle/cousins put on), where we had a really great time.  We took the kids swimming at the hotel, and really enjoyed spending time with family that we only get to see a couple times a year.

After breakfast Sunday morning we headed home.  We drove through a pretty bad thunderstorm on the way home, but had no idea what would be waiting for us.  As we turned onto our street, we saw trees down everywhere.  Apparently a few hours before a really bad storm had gone through our neighborhood.  Several neighbors had trees that had fallen on their houses.  Just past our driveway, the entire street was blocked by trees that had fallen.  There were fallen branches everywhere.  Our patio furniture and the kids’ outdoor toys were blown all over the yard.  It looked as if a tornado had passed through, although none were reported.  And, of course, we had no electricity.

We stuck it out at home for a few hours until the kids were driving me nuts asking to watch TV, then decided to go over to my mom’s for dinner, baths, and True Blood.  We hopped in the car and only made it a few blocks before I realized my car was acting really funny (where the word “funny” does not actually mean funny, but “holy crap what is wrong with my car now?!?!?!?”).  I was afraid to drive it all the way to my mom’s, so I turned around and parked it at home.  We loaded up in hubby’s car instead and drove on over to my mom’s.  By the time we got back home we were hoping the power would be back on, but had no such luck.

We made it through the hot, sweaty night listening to tires squeal every time a car came up to the trees across the road (one actually crashed into the tree).  After taking a shower and getting dressed in a dark room, I got the kids up and we started in on our Monday routine.

At noon, I took my lunch break so I could go back to the house to see if the electricity was back on and to check the fridge.  The power was still out, but I did go ahead and check the fridge to see if anything was still cold at all, which it was (somewhat).  Unfortunately, it was also all covered in sticky goo due to a pressurized can of Cool Whip exploding all over the place.

Since the trees were finally cleared from the road, I drove down the road a ways to check things out and discovered the power and cable lines were completely down just past our house.  It was just shortly after that that I realized the air conditioner in hubby’s car was blowing hot air at me.

I got back to work practically in tears knowing that I just could not take one more thing.  I vented a bit and started feeling  a little better.  Yet, I still drove home completely frustrated and beaten down.

Hubby got home just before I did and called to let me know we had power.  That lifted my spirits a little bit, even though I knew that meant we had a lot of work to do.

As soon as I got home, I started cleaning out the fridge and freezer.  We were able to keep quite a bit, but also threw out a lot.  When that was finished, I scarfed down some food, bathed the kids, and headed to the grocery store.  When I finally finished everything, I looked at the clock and it was 10:40.  I decided to head to bed and lose myself in a book for a while.

This morning I got up and had a good (although a bit sluggish) run.  I started the day out with a better outlook even though I still have no idea what we’re going to do about my car.  We’ll make it through this, just like we do with everything else.  Although, I wouldn’t complain if several thousand dollars fell out of the sky and into my lap.

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4th of July Weekend

Despite the downpour that canceled out the 4th of July fireworks and the red crayon that I found melted in my dryer, this was one of the best weekends I’ve had in a long time.  At the top of the list is the fact that I got to sleep in past 10:00 a.m. three days in a row.  I honestly can’t remember the last time that has happened.  I’m sure I’ll still be just as tired when I have to wake up early tomorrow morning, but it was a pretty amazing feeling while it lasted.

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Saturday morning hubby and I got up and started in on the kids’ room.  We have been wanting to pull up the carpet in there for while and figured the 3-day weekend was a good time to do it.  We started in knowing that there were wood floors underneath, but not having any idea what kind of shape they were in.  As it turned out, they weren’t great but weren’t completely horrible either.  We did have to scrub the entire floor on our hands and knees to remove some black gunk, but once we got it up, the floor looked pretty good.

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We rearranged the furniture a bit, re-bunked the bunk beds, and put down a small area rug to cover a couple bad spots in the floor.  I still need to work on the arrangement of the wall decorations, but their room looks much better than it did.  The kids are loving it so far.  They’ve been playing in there instead of their playroom which is very unusual.

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After we finished the floor, we cleaned ourselves up, dropped the kids off at Grandma’s, and headed out on the town for a well-deserved date night.  Since we never really got to celebrate our anniversary last month, we went out for a nice dinner at Jess & Jim’s Steakhouse, then I made hubby take me to see Eclipse.  We don’t get out by ourselves often enough and it was really nice to have  quiet (kid-free) evening together.

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Sunday we headed over to my mom’s to have dinner with the family and then planned on going to see fireworks at Corporate Woods. We got there and set up our chairs just in time for it to start sprinkling. It seemed like the rain wouldn’t be too bad, so we decided to wait it out in hopes that the firework show would still go on. My kids were so excited for fireworks that I really hated to disappoint them. We stuck it out much longer than most folks, but when it started pouring and I discovered that the water was soaking through my camera bag, we decided it was time to go.

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By the time we got back to the cars, we were all absolutely soaked. Fortunately, we had a basket of clean, dry clothes at my mom’s house due the the crayon in the dryer incident I mentioned earlier so we scrounged and managed to find something for all of us to wear. Once everyone was dry, we got the kids all settled down and my sister, my mom, and I headed to the theater to watch Eclipse again (Yes, it was that good!).

Since the kids were sleeping by the time we got back from the movie, we left them to sleep at Grandma’s again and hubby and enjoyed sleeping in again on Monday morning.

We picked the kids up Monday afternoon, took my mom to pick her car up from the shop, stopped for some ice cream, then came home and started mourning the end of a really excellent weekend. It’s going to be really hard to jump back into our normal routine in the morning.

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Chaos Is Not So Much A Routine

You never think that coming home from vacation will be harder than preparing to leave for vacation, but it always is.  Those little things that you do day in and day out throughout the week really add up.  And when you are gone for over a week, there is a lot to do when you get back.  All of that is the long way to tell you all that the last week was insanely crazy for me.

Besides all of the catch up, I decided that immediately after we returned from vacation would be a great time to throw a wrench into our established routine.  Since preschool was over for Zach at the end of May, we’re changing gears a bit over the summer.  He’s spending three days a week at the sitter with Evie, and the other two days he’s spending at my sister’s house.  Being the awesome preschool teacher that she is, she’s working with him a bit over the summer on his letters and numbers.  In order for him to do that, he has to spend the night up there two nights a week (due to the 30-minute drive each way).  Zach is loving every minute of it, especially since he gets to hang out with his cousins two days a week.

This is all working out splendidly, especially on those mornings when Zach is at my sister’s house.  Mornings go much easier when I only have to get myself and Evie up.  I even got to work 15 minutes early one day, which is pretty much unheard of for me.  If it weren’t for the fact that I had to arrange to pick him up two evenings a week, the whole deal would just be spectacular.  I hate for my evening routine to be messed up but I chose to do this, so I can’t really complain.  It just makes the week feel so much busier.

After a crazy week of the new routine, trying to catch up at work, trying to catch up at home, and in the meantime keep my sanity, I was wiped out by the weekend.  I had all these plans of things I wanted to get done and I got very little of it done.  Instead, I had one of the best weekends with my family that I’ve had in a long time.  We did get a bit of work done on the house but we also went to see Toy Story 3, took a long afternoon nap during a thunderstorm, had my brother-in-law over for dinner and a movie, played on the slip ‘n’ slide, and went swimming at my mom’s.  I ended the weekend exhausted, sunburned, and very happy.

It makes me wish I could just blow off the housework and other odds and ends all the time and just have fun.  Oh, how I wish that were an option.  I wish I could just shove it all aside and take a true vacation for the summer like Cass intends to do.  Wouldn’t that be wonderful?

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Mountains, Dinosaurs, Buffalo, and Antelope

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If you’re not keeping up on facebook or twitter, the family and I embarked on our annual summer road trip last Friday.  This year we headed up to Utah to visit Hubby’s family.  Much of the trip here was rather boring (Nebraska) but then we drove through Wyoming – where we saw real cowboys!  Finally, as we neared Utah we started seeing mountains and Evie was super impressed.

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After nearly 18 hours of driving (including pit stops) and a quick overnight stay at the Comfort Inn in Laramie, WY, we finally made it to our destination. We were all quite happy to get out of the car at last. The kids were thrilled to see their cousins, Uncle, Granny, and Papa.

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We stuck around the house the first day, then headed into Salt Lake City where we walked around downtown, enjoyed lunch at a local microbrewery, went to a cool dinosaur museum, and then I got to go to IKEA for the very first time. I’m not sure what part of that trip was the most exciting. I am thinking of moving closer to an IKEA though.

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Yesterday we went to Antelope Island where we saw the Great Salt Lake, some buffalo, an antelope or two, and toured an old ranch. After we got back, the kids enjoyed playing out in the yard some more. Zach and Evie have really been enjoying playing in the little pool and sprinkler.

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Today we drove out to Bear Lake, which was absolutely beautiful. We had a picnic lunch, let the kids play, and had a great time. On the way back, we were so high in the mountains that we encountered snow. It was strange to be dressed in shorts and t-shirts and be standing next to a pile of snow.

I still have lots of photos to go through, but we really are having a great time. Tomorrow is our last full day in Utah before heading back home and I’m a little sad about that. I wish we could stay longer.

It is going to be awfully hard to leave, but at least we’ll have the photos to remember it by.

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Firsts

Evie went on her very first sleepover last week.  She has stayed overnight with Grandma a couple of times, but Zach has always been with her.  This time she went all by herself.  Granted, she was spending the night at my brother’s house, but it was still a pretty big deal.  It was her first overnight with a girlfriend.  From the sounds of things, she got spoiled rotten and had a really great time with her cousin Caitlin.  I was even a little jealous because she got to go to the zoo while I was stuck at work.

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Thursday night was my nephew Ryan’s preschool graduation. I got handed the task of taking photos of the kids as they walked across the stage (which I didn’t mind at all). For some reason I decided to take the plunge and shot the entire thing in manual mode. I’ve played around with manual before, but never felt confident enough to use it when I was shooting anything important. I finally felt like I was ready, shot a bunch of test shots before hand, and just did it. I did end up with some bad shots, but I also ended up with some really good shots, so it was a win in my books. My biggest problem was trying to focus and keep focused when the kids were moving so fast across the stage.

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The best part of the graduation though, was watching my sister. Since she’s my sister, I don’t always think of her as being someone’s teacher, but she is without a doubt the best preschool teacher I’ve ever seen. Her love for the kids she teaches shines through in everything she does. She had a bit of a hard time getting through the ceremony (especially when it was Ryan’s turn to walk across the stage) but I think that just shows how much she cares about those kids. This is what she was meant to do and it shows.

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On Saturday, my mom and I got up bright and early to walk in the Hillcrest Walk for the Homeless. It was my first 5K of the year and I really enjoyed it. I wasn’t thrilled to wake up to rain, but I didn’t let it dampen my spirits! The walk went great, aside from the big blister on my toe. I personally ended up with $215 of pledges and was thrilled with that considering I had less than a week to ask for donations. I want to send out a HUGE THANK YOU to everyone who gave. I know money is tight for a lot of people right now, and that just makes me even more appreciative. I was just recently introduced to the Hillcrest program and it is something I definitely want to support in the future.

And now here are some random pics I took of my kids while doing my test shots on graduation night.

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