I recently heard through the grapevine that one of my exes and his wife are expecting a baby. I honestly couldn’t be more happy for him. I always pictured him being a really great father. He was my first really serious boyfriend in high school and my first true love. He was the first boy I ever imagined myself married to, as well as the first I ever imagined having babies with. I think I even had those imaginary babies’ names picked out. He also picked on me constantly, which for some strange reason, made me like him even more.
It is odd that even after so many years I can still care so deeply about someone who I barely even know now. I’m the kind of person that once I love you, I will always love you, regardless of how things turn out in the end…even if you dump me because I’m not willing to put out. Hey, who am I to question a 16-year-old boy’s motives? Well, maybe that wasn’t the whole reason, but I’m pretty sure that had something to do with it. I have always wondered a little bit what would have happened if I would have given in.
We have kept in touch here and there, although over the last few years it has really gotten to be only an e-mail every six months or so, maybe less. I even went to visit him and his wife a few years ago. Hubby just happened to be working where the ex lived and we got together with him and his wife for dinner. It was only a little bit weird with his wife and my future hubby sitting next to us. I had a great time seeing him. Looking straight into his eyes still made me squirm a little bit even after so many years had gone by.
This summer is supposed to be our 10-year high school reunion and even though I ended up moving before graduation, I was planning on attending. However, I just found out the date for it and it just happens to be the same time that we were planning to go on vacation. The vacation can’t be re-scheduled because part of the vacation is going to Phoenix for hubby’s brother’s wedding. The rest of the time we are spending with hubby’s parents. Given the recent circumstances, I think the time with his parents is extremely important.
I was really hoping to see him at the reunion, along with a few other people that I have lost touch with over the years. I’m a little bummed now that I won’t get to see them. Personally, I think that they should re-schedule the whole reunion for me, but I guess that’s a bit too much to ask for someone who didn’t really even graduate there.
Perhaps somewhere along the way our paths will meet again someday, but I’m not holding my breath. I guess an e-mail every six months or even every year will have to do. But, he has been notified that if I don’t receive some baby pictures I will make the 3 1/2 hour drive and kick his ass!
