Pregnancy #2 – Page 7 – deeperrin.com

The Good

This week I had my first OB appointment for baby #2 (for whom I have no creative nickname because I suck). All went well at the appointment and the doc gave me a predicted due date of March 28th, 2008. I got to set up all of my appointments for the next few months, including the 20-week sonogram which I’m already anxious for.

Zach has been adjusting to his new day care a little bit better. There are still some tears at drop-off, but he’s been having a good time during the day and is always happy and smiling when I pick him up. I’m feeling much better about the whole situation now, although drop-off is still really hard in the mornings.

The Bad

Sometime during week six or so, the morning sickness and fatigue decided to set in. The morning sickness occurs pretty much all day and night, but is manageable for the most part. Uncomfortable, but manageable. The fatigue is a bit harder to ignore as I’ve found myself falling asleep at my desk at work more than once.

Partially because of the new pregnancy (and fatigue) and partially because I was already considering it, I’ve decided to give up my Tot TV Watch blog at 451 Press. It was a difficult decision to make because I really have enjoyed writing there over the last 8 months, but it was something I needed to do for myself and my family. Between the extra time it was taking up and the stress of having to post on a schedule, I was having a hard time keeping up.

The Ugly

On top of the morning sickness that recently started, I have somehow managed to contract some kind of stomach bug. I left work early on Thursday thinking that I was having the worst morning sickness I have ever experienced, only to quickly discover it was much more than that. I’ve pretty much spent the last three days either in bed, in the bathroom, or lying on the futon watching TV. It hasn’t been at all pleasant. Hubby’s been trying to help out, but it is awfully hard explaining to a 2-year-old why mommy can’t just jump up whenever he wants her to. When I tell him that mommy is sick, he replies with, “Zach sick too,” and curls up next to me. I guess it’s not all bad.

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I’m not quite sure where to even begin. I have so many thoughts racing through my head. I’m pregnant. Every time I say those words in my head I want to let out a little squeal. I still can barely believe it. Just last month I visited my OB/Gyn because it had been just over a year since we started trying for another baby. She put me back on Glucophage to help with my PCOS and here I am pregnant a month later. I have no idea if that’s what did it or if God just decided the timing was finally right. Either way, I am beyond thrilled. I really didn’t expect it to happen quite yet.

When I can find a spare moment when I’m not squealing from joy, the reality of the situation hits me. We definitely want another child, but when I think about having to actually take care of a newborn and an almost 3-year-old I get a little scared. I know when the time comes I will handle it just fine, but right now I’m not so sure. Zach can be such a challenge sometimes. I’m just hoping that by then we will have worked out some of the power struggles that seem to be happening now. Plus, he should be fully potty-trained by then so I won’t have to have two kids in diapers.

The really scary part is the financial responsibility. Babies are expensive and we’re struggling now. Somehow, things will work out. I know this. But it is definitely scary to think about how we will pay for day care. The other costs are minimal. We’re used to buying diapers and we won’t have to worry about extra food for a while, but day care is going to kill us. We may end up selling everything we own, but as I said, somehow we will manage.

For now, I want to put all of those thoughts in the back of my mind and just enjoy the fact that I’m going to have a new little baby to cuddle and love. I’m sure Zach doesn’t quite get the reality of the whole baby thing yet, but for now he’s excited. I don’t think he’ll be as excited when the baby actually arrives and he realizes that his whole world is getting turned upside down.

It’s still very early in the pregnancy. By my calculations, I’m only about 4 weeks along and should have a due date around March 30, 2008. According to the BabyCenter bulletin I got in my inbox yesterday, the baby’s organs should start forming sometime in the next week or so and it’s heart will start beating. Even though I’ve been through it once before, I am still so amazed at how the human body creates new life.

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