Scattered

My brain is not working so well these days.  It seems it is constantly running in a million directions and I can’t seem to concentrate on any one thing.  I have a running list of to-do items flowing through my brain, yet can’t seem to accomplish any of them.

I’m forgetting important things, ignoring things that I just don’t have the energy to deal with, yelling at my kids when they just want some attention because I just can’t take one more thing.

I drove past the turn to Zach’s school three times in one day because my mind was wandering.

I did manage to make sure Zach had clean school clothes and helped him complete his homework every night this week, so that’s something.

For the last two weeks I’ve been unbelievably tired.  I’m blaming it on allergies/sinuses/stress, but there has been more than one night when I’ve put myself to bed just after the kids are tucked in.  Yet, I still can’t seem to get enough sleep.  Then there’s the headaches, which I haven’t had in years.  They come nearly every day.

I’m making lists – trying to get back on track.  I bought a new notebook and pens to motivate myself at work.  (Funny how a new pen can change my mood)  I pulled out my Busy Body Book that I haven’t used since February to motivate myself at home.  I’m hoping that new to-do lists and schedules will help keep me on track a bit.

I haven’t really been running since Race for the Cure.  I got a couple of runs in this week, but can’t seem to find the motivation I need.  There’s the tiredness, and then I found a strange bump on the top of my foot that (maybe) explains the dull pain I’ve been having for quite a while.  I miss it, but I can’t seem to motivate myself to get out of bed in the mornings.  I should have gotten up to run today, but I chose the extra hour of sleep instead.

I know part of it is just the change in routine.  We’re all adjusting to a new schedule with Zach starting school.  Plus, whether I like it or not, I’m pretty sure the stress of him starting school is still causing a bit of an emotional drain on me.

There’s just a lot going on and I would really like for it all to just stop, so I can get organized, rest, and catch up.  I’m tired of my head and my life feeling so scattered.