It seems like everyone around me is suddenly pregnant. My sister (less than a month to go!), my sister-in-law, my cousin, online friends, friends of friends…the list goes on and on. But there’s one person who isn’t pregnant. Me.
I try really hard not to let it get to me, but sometimes it does. I was going along just fine until today. Today is when I got the news that my cousin is pregnant and even though I was thrilled to hear the news, it somehow hit me in a bad way.
I can’t seem to get it off my mind. I know that all will happen in God’s time and that I have to be patient, but it is hard to be patient when you really want something. It is hard to be patient when you see so many people around you that have what you want.
I want Zach to have a little brother or sister to play with. I want to watch them grow up together. I want to cuddle with a teeny tiny baby again. I want Zach to cuddle with that teeny tiny baby.
I know I’m lucky to have Zach and I am extremely lucky that I had a very easy pregnancy with no scares and no problems whatsoever. I just wish I knew the magic secret to making it happen again.
Don’t get me wrong, I am very excited for all of the babies that will soon be in my life. I can’t wait to hold my new nephew next month and to find out whether my sister-in-law will be having a boy or girl later in the year. I just wish I could be adding another tot to the family as well.