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Month: September 2008

5, 4, 3, 2, 1…Blast off!

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Every time I think things are getting better with Zach, he seems to want to prove me wrong. He went through a very rough patch just after Evie was born, but with a day care change and the passing of time he seemed to be getting better. He has his good and bad days, but overall things have been better.

We still occasionally have days where he refuses to get dressed, but I can usually convince him without too much of a fight. He still throws tantrums when he doesn’t get his way, but they are less frequent. And he still has the occasional night where he doesn’t sleep well but they are few and far between these days.

The last week or so has been a bit more challenging. I’ve woken up several times hearing him crying in his sleep. Sometimes he wakes up. Other times he stays asleep and the crying eventually stops. I know kids have bad dreams, but I hate not being able to know what is scaring him or making him cry.  When it happens I have flashbacks of the months of night terrors we went through and I spend the rest of the night hoping and praying that they aren’t starting again.

Just after I stepped out of the shower this morning I heard him crying. He was still in bed so I rushed in to see what was wrong. He immediately reached up to give me a hug like he does when he’s been in trouble for something. It just didn’t seem right. When I asked him what was wrong he said, “You were in the rocket ship and you blasted off without me because I wasn’t in my seat.” I asked why he wasn’t in his seat and he said, “Because I wasn’t listening and you blasted off without me.”  He was crying because I left without him.

And then it hit me. I couldn’t tell you how many times I have told him I was leaving him at home if he didn’t get in the car during one of his morning tantrums. I felt awful.

We had a talk about dreams and how they weren’t real. I reassured him that I would never leave him because he wasn’t in his seat. We hugged and snuggled and made up, but I still feel just horrible.

Why in the world would I ever say something like that to him? Why did I feel the need to use fear to get him to behave? That is not at all the kind of parent I thought I would be. Why should he have to hurt because I am frustrated? Yes, a child needs to behave but not because he is terrified of what will happen if he doesn’t.

I need to do a better job of keeping myself in check. Seeing my son wake up in tears and thinking he was in trouble was horrible. I never want to have to do that again. I know I’ll never be the perfect parent I want to be, but I am going to strive to be better from now on.

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Evie's 6 Month Portraits

Evie is growing so fast I can barely keep up these days. I took her this weekend to get some portraits taken. I don’t know why I’m surprised at how well they turned out, but I just love every single one. I’m not sure whether the slideshow will show up in a feed or not, so if it doesn’t click through. I promise it is worth it.

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Happy Birthday To The Man I Love

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I don’t tell you or show you often enough, but I would be lost in this world without you.  Thank you for choosing to be my husband and the father of my children.  I love you more than words can say.  I know you don’t like your birthdays much, but each one I get to celebrate with you means we’ve shared one more year together.  That makes all the grumbling worth it.  Happy Birthday Babe!  I hope the year to come is even better than the last.
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Sibling Love

You know what I love even more than my two kids?  My two kids together.

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Evie worships her big brother right now.  If he’s in the room, she is most likely watching him.  She’ll start laughing out of nowhere and when I look up to see why, she’s always looking at him.  Other people can make her laugh, but no one can make her laugh as easily as Zach can.  All he has to do is look at her the right way or say something to her and she starts giggling.

Last night I was having a hard time getting Zach to bed so I took Evie with me and sat on the edge of his bed to talk for a few minutes.  Evie kept diving toward Zach so I decided to let her lay down with him for a couple minutes.  He wrapped his arms around her and they immediately started giggling together.  I grabbed the camera, snapped a few pics of them together, and then told Zach that it was time to go to sleep.  He got mad when I told him I was taking Evie away and begged me to let her sleep with him.  Of course I couldn’t let her, but it was still sweet that he wanted her with him.

The entire time I was pregnant with Evie I looked forward to these moments.  I love watching them together.  I can’t wait to watch them as they get older – laughing, telling secrets, and all those things that brothers and sisters do (even the fighting).  There is nothing I love in this world more than my kids and to see them loving each other is more than I could ever ask for.

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Blissfully Linking

Remember when I told you about the Blissfully Domestic re-launch?  They had a few hiccups along the way, but now the site is up and running smoothly.  The ladies over at Blissfully Domestic are posting some absolutely great content and I can’t seem to stay away.  They pretty much have a channel for every one of my interests so there’s always something for me to read.  And what’s even better?  I have my very first post up on the Creative Bliss channel today.  You should go read it and leave me a comment.  Really, you should.  You don’t want to make me beg do you?  I’m posting with some very crafty ladies over there and I want to feel like I belong.

(If you subscribe here, you’ve probably already seen the post because I cheated a little this time and used something I’d already written.  I promise I won’t be duplicating posts every time.  I was just a little short on time and craftiness this time around!)

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Tooting My Own Horn

Remember when I told you about the Blissfully Domestic re-launch? They had a few hiccups along the way, but now the site is up and running smoothly. The ladies over at Blissfully Domestic are posting some absolutely great content and I can’t seem to stay away. They pretty much have a channel for every one of my interests so there’s always something for me to read. And what’s even better? I have my very first post up on the Creative Bliss channel today. You should go read it and leave me a comment. Really, you should. You don’t want to make me beg do you? I’m posting with some very crafty ladies over there and I want to feel like I belong.

(If you subscribe over at Getting Crafty, you’ve probably already seen the post because I cheated a little this time and used something I’d already written. I promise I won’t be duplicating posts every time. I was just a little short on time and craftiness this time around!)

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