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I Wanna Be The Not-So-Big Me Again

A couple of weeks ago I made the decision to start Weight Watchers again.  I have never cancelled my online membership, but have let it slip from my mind over the last 6 months or so.  In the meantime, I have also gained back somewhere in the range of 10-15 pounds but I don’t know the exact number because I don’t want to see it on the scale.  I do know that my clothes are getting a little too uncomfortably tight.  So, in order to prepare myself for my November 1st start date (the same date I started last time) I have been stuffing my face with every food item I come into contact with.  Yes, I do realize how stupid this is.  The thing is, I have been trying to cut back but then I see something I want to eat and I figure I can’t have it after November 1st so I go ahead and eat it whether I am hungry or not.  I’m guessing this is where the last 5 or so pounds came from.  Either that, or it was my mother-in-law’s cooking that I’ve been eating for the last month.  Either way, I’m not happy with myself.  I have to lose this excess weight.  I want to feel better.  I want to look better.  I want to wear clothes that fit instead of the big baggy ones I tend to wear when I feel fat.  I want to find my confidence again.  I need to change the way I eat.  I need to change the way I live.  I have to make these permanent changes.  I don’t want to do the yo-yo dieting for the rest of my life.  I need to have a healthy relationship with food.  I need to use a little self-control.  I need to get the idea out of my head that food will make me feel better. 

Now, if I can just make it past Halloween and all the gobs of gooey chocolate that will surely be spilling out of Zach’s Trick-or-Treat bag I’ll be doing good.

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  1. I’m confused…WW is all about being able to eat what you want, just that you manage the portions and calorie content correctly. So technically, you shouldn’t have to “give up” anything…just not gorge on it. 🙂

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