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2 kids, 2 dogs, 2 cats, and 1 husband – life isn’t perfect, but it is what we make it

My Ovaries Hate Me

Published by dee on March 28, 2007

It seems like everyone around me is suddenly pregnant.  My sister (less than a month to go!), my sister-in-law, my cousin, online friends, friends of friends…the list goes on and on.  But there’s one person who isn’t pregnant.  Me.

I try really hard not to let it get to me, but sometimes it does.  I was going along just fine until today.  Today is when I got the news that my cousin is pregnant and even though I was thrilled to hear the news, it somehow hit me in a bad way.

I can’t seem to get it off my mind.  I know that all will happen in God’s time and that I have to be patient, but it is hard to be patient when you really want something.  It is hard to be patient when you see so many people around you that have what you want.

I want Zach to have a little brother or sister to play with.  I want to watch them grow up together.  I want to cuddle with a teeny tiny baby again.  I want Zach to cuddle with that teeny tiny baby. 

I know I’m lucky to have Zach and I am extremely lucky that I had a very easy pregnancy with no scares and no problems whatsoever.  I just wish I knew the magic secret to making it happen again.

Don’t get me wrong, I am very excited for all of the babies that will soon be in my life.  I can’t wait to hold my new nephew next month and to find out whether my sister-in-law will be having a boy or girl later in the year.   I just wish I could be adding another tot to the family as well.

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451 Presss looking for more bloggers

Published by dee on March 28, 2007

451 Press is looking for bloggers to cover the following topics:

12 Step Programs
Alzheimer’s
Autism
Breastfeeding
Cancer
Diabetes
Flu
Vegetarian

If anyone is interested, let me know.  They are also looking for bloggers in some other areas, so if you aren’t interested in one of these, but are interested in writing over there, let me know.  If you go over there and apply , please make sure to list my name and tottvwatch.com as a reference.

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Seven Songs

Published by dee on March 27, 2007

So I didn’t really mean to be all, “Hey world, look at my blog!” and then disappear.  Things have just been a little busy the last few days.  The in-laws and grandparent-in-laws were in town for a few days and I’ve had a hard time keeping up with the internet.  So that you don’t all think I’ve run away or panicked about the whole coming out thing (hi sis!), I though I would take a few precious moments of my lunch break and post a little something.

The “Seven Songs I’m Listening To At The Moment” (or as I like to call it, the “Seven Songs I’m Digging”) meme is going around again and I’ve really been wanting to join in.  The problem is that while I listen to a lot of music, I can’t seem to single out seven songs that are worthy of the list.  Plus, I have a hard time actually remembering the names of the songs I like.  Apparently my brain has reached its full point and just can’t retain any more.  I’ve been brewing on this one for a couple of weeks now and I finally decided to just pick some dang songs and post already.  So, here’s the list of what I’m currently “digging”:

  1. To Love Somebody (Bee Gee’s cover) – Ray LaMontagne and Damien Rice
  2. Love, Reign O’er Me (Who cover) – Pearl Jam (You knew there had to be some PJ in there, right?)
  3. Missouri In The Morning – Ryan Auffenberg
  4. Last Dollar (Fly Away) – Tim McGraw
  5. Highways and Cigarettes – Son Volt
  6. Sillyworld – Stone Sour
  7. The Sun Doesn’t Like You – Norah Jones

I’m not tagging anyone, but if you decide to do the meme let me know so I can come check it out!

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The Crazy Chip

Published by dee on March 23, 2007

I have come to the conclusion that the tubes inserted into the boy’s ears must have a crazy chip in them.  I can think of no other explanation for his recent actions.

First there was this:
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I bought this for the cats thinking they might have fun with it, but I had no idea that Zach had other intentions.  He was wiggling and squirming like he had been possessed, but at least it entertained him for a while.

Then, there was this:
Doin' a Jig
He was shrieking and dancing and exhibiting all sorts of crazy (with his shoes on the wrong feet because he insisted they be that way).  Maybe he thought the bugs on his shirt were alive?

Followed shortly by this:
Enjoying the View
I’m not sure if they were howling at the moon or planning their escape, but they were definitely in cahoots about something.

This all occurred in a matter of hours.  It is a good thing the in-laws will be here this weekend so I can pawn some of the crazy off on them.

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Coming Out of the Closet

Published by dee on March 21, 2007

I’ve been hinting around lately that my blog is going to be a little more public soon and today is the big day.  A couple of weeks ago I was contacted by a writer at the Kansas City Star who wanted to feature my blog in an article he was writing.  At first I was pretty excited about it, but then I had to stop and think for a few minutes.

Up until now I have kept this blog very private.  I only recently decided to share it with my husband and even that was a big step for me.  Allowing my name to be printed and associated with this blog is a pretty scary thing.  It means that anyone who does a google search for my name has an all access pass to my innermost thoughts.  Well, the innermost thoughts that I choose to publish online anyway.  It means that my family, my boss, and anyone else who really wants to find me can and most likely will.  The chances of the article sliding by unnoticed by anyone I know are very slim.  A lot of people around here read the paper.

I debated back and forth about whether to back out, but in the end decided that maybe it is time that I come out of the closet.  My biggest fear is that someone will read my words, take them the wrong way, and be offended.  It may be scary, or even downright terrifying, but at the same time I imagine it will be very freeing.  I no longer have to hide something that has become such a huge part of who I am. 

I think I may be making a big deal about nothing really.  I guess I’ll find out soon. 

You can read the article here, if you haven’t already seen it (You have to click on the link to "Meet More of KC’s Bloggers" to get to me.  I’m the last one).  If you have read it and followed the link here, welcome!  Please leave a comment and say hello.  If you are family and you are discovering my blog for the first time, um, I’m not sure what to say really.  Enjoy?

If you are new, you’ll find that my writing is a little sporadic in content.  You might want to check out some of these recent posts to learn a little more about me:

And, because I’m just nice like that, here’s a list of other blogs featured in the article:

**I’ve had to edit a couple of times already this morning, but it looks like everything is correct now.  The online version of the article had some details incorrect but they have been fixed.

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It's Never As Bad As You Imagine

Published by dee on March 21, 2007

Today was the big surgery day.  Zach did really well and I did pretty okay myself.  I didn’t get nearly as upset as I thought I would, but I actually give Zach the credit for that one.  He didn’t even cry, except for just a couple of tears when they took him away from me for the surgery.  He is seriously the toughest little kid I have ever known.  Nothing seems to phase him.

Still Waiting

I wasn’t timing it, but I would guess that in less than ten minutes after they took him away the doctor came out to tell us he was all finished.  He did tell us that Zach does have yet another ear infection, but with the tubes and some antibiotic ear drops (that he needed anyway with the surgery) it should clear right up. 

Another ten minutes or so later, we were back in the recovery room with him.  He was still a bit droopy, but was happy to see his mama and dada walk through the big doors.  I will admit that my eyes welled up just slightly as we walked through the recovery room doors, but I didn’t cry.  (So what if my 21-month-old son is tougher than me!)

Grandma met us in the waiting room with a Diego beanie baby and Dora balloon which Zach just absolutely loved.  All in all, the whole process took less than two hours from start to finish.  Not bad at all.

After the hospital, we took a detour to Ihop for some breakfast since none of us had eaten anything.  It took Zach a little while to completely wake up, but by the time the rest of us had eaten, he was awake and scarfing down his smiley face chocolate chip pancake.

When we got home, I assumed he would be all snugly and groggy for a while.  I assumed wrong.  He did cuddle up on the couch with me for a while, but about the time I started falling asleep, he decided to get hyper.  He was running all over the place.  He has finally settled down for a nap and I’m thinking maybe I need to do the same.

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